江原道多雪。早早的下,晚晚的停。公路,房屋,稻谷连带着人都蒙上层厚厚的白。雪来的时候,从他的房间的窗户看出去,世界好像变成二维的,只剩下白和灰。走在路上都是缩着脖子,生怕灌进一丝凉,那凉可厉害,生生渗进骨缝里,不分时候地发作,叫人冷得打颤。金希澈是这样给朴正洙介绍他的家乡的,介绍完他抬头看朴正洙,发现那人眼睛亮晶晶,在想象着金希澈说的景象。
然后一把拉住金希澈的手臂说,等我们出道了,你回家乡带我一个,我想去看看。
众所周知,金希澈讨厌肢体接触。他那时敏感且过度自尊,什么都不放在心上又什么都放在心上。他之前对现在眼前这个人的解读是:不懂得满足自己的傻子。而他又是太爱自己,所以他们在金希澈的主动下保持着很适当的距离。可那一刻,金希澈突然并不觉得烦,也没有半夜被拉着讲话不能睡觉的焦躁,甚至有真的在考虑朴正洙的提议,而这仅仅是因为朴正洙抓住的是他被长袖盖住的手臂,而不是手掌。
金希澈有时候觉得,是不是事情沾上了朴正洙,他就会多想一层。否则怎么解释只是因为在练舞的时候多看了朴正洙一眼,就多注意了一下他和别人的交谈,就觉得朴正洙不对劲。于是接下来理所应当的朴正洙破天荒宿舍宵禁了却还没回去。
他们住一间屋子,共同分享一张床,一个衣柜和一间卫生间。他们是彼此的秘密室友。
金希澈是和李东海一起住了很长一段时间,可他觉得李东海太黏人了,于是第一次宿舍大会有了议题。当金希澈边吃着炒年糕边把自己想换房间的想法说出来后,回应他的是沉默和李东海不解的眼神。他其实也没想过能换成功,所以并不是很在意,还是一口接一口的吃着炒年糕。毕竟跑行程和上舞台都是消耗体力的事,这种时候当然还是填饱肚子更重要。等金希澈慢慢悠悠吃完,桌上没剩下几个人了,收拾好自己制造的垃圾,他起身打算离开,朴正洙突然开口,我的房间有卫生间。
金希澈想不清楚这种情况。
是对他说的吗?那这算什么?是邀请吗?他不喜欢一些模棱两可,所以他觉得烦躁,就随意附和了一声,没把朴正洙的话当回事。
那天晚上,金希澈录制的节目中途出了点问题,被迫延长了工作时间。回到宿舍天快亮了,本着不想吵醒李东海的好意,他走向客厅。朴正洙就是这时候开门的,样子像是刚睡醒去客厅喝水。看到沙发上躺着的金希澈犹豫了一下,还是朝金希澈走去。
你要不去我房间休息吧,我现在要出门了。
如果清醒着,金希澈大概率是不会接受朴正洙的好意。可那天实在是太累,脑子大概糊涂了,再加上那张沙发真的不太舒服,所以等金希澈一觉醒来已经是下午了。他明目张胆地打量着这间房,扑面而来的白和自己家乡下雪时很接近。还真符合主人的性格呢,金希澈盯着桌边椅子上的包想。
朴正洙回来的时候金希澈早就离开了。他打开门,看见房间里没人,松了口气。走到椅子边坐下,看到了金希澈留下的纸条,划了又划剩下的“谢谢”,他笑金希澈的别扭,然后把纸条叠好放在抽屉里。
之后金希澈偶尔会从宿舍右边最里面一间房里走出来,然后敲敲对面房间的门,叫醒李东海。
金希澈想,他大概爱朴正洙。
在他在宿舍天台找到朴正洙的时候,这个念头又冒出来。他走过去,走到朴正洙身边,侧过头看他。而朴正洙似乎早就知道金希澈会过来,把视线从楼底下收回来,放在金希澈身上跟他说,希澈啊,你找到我了。看金希澈不说话,朴正洙继续说,我在这看了好久,你说从这里跳下去会死吗?你来之前我可想试试。希澈啊,快到你服役的时间了吧。通知书今天我从经纪人那边拿回来了,就放在你的房间,你记得把该填的都填着。你说我们要不要把演唱会提前一点?在你走之前,得再看看粉丝们啊。
金希澈不回应,朴正洙就一直说。反正可以说的事情有很多。可关于他们的又很少,所以金希澈实在是很容易听懂朴正洙在说什么。他的这位朋友,心思细腻说起话来要拐好几道弯,要让人想了又想想了又想才能明白他的意思。
希澈啊,你等等我吧。
金希澈把朴正洙的话解构重组得出结论
他把朴正洙揽在怀里,轻拍他的背说,正洙,别担心,我去去就回。
我去去就回。
这是金希澈给朴正洙的小拇指。
于是朴正洙说,还是把演唱会提前吧,我们。
这是朴正洙回给他的盖章。
入伍那段日子其实说实话并不好受,虽然是申请的公益兵,但还是得接受为期一月的体能训练。部队又是非常排外的,这点在艺人身上提现得尤为明显。可金希澈是绝不可能低头的人,就算是死也得死在训练场上。这是他那时候对自己说过的最多的话。
朴正洙的信来得恰到好处,不早也不晚就在金希澈跟自己拧巴到了极点的时候。
统一取信那天,金希澈在一堆花花绿绿的信封里一眼看到了那封纯白的。
他总是知道
他也总是知道
反正就是金希澈打开了那封信,两页信纸写得满满当当但内容其实没什么特别的,无非就是成员们如何如何,父母们如何如何,粉丝们如何如何……可能连朴正洙自己都不明白,他为什么会在一周有五六个固定行程,忙到只能在移动的途中休息的时候还挤出时间写了这封流水账。但金希澈好像懂了,他突然格外想念朴正洙,他也突然发现原来自己一直都在想念朴正洙。于是那些不起眼的瞬间连接着太多细微得看不见小点全都汇聚起来在金希澈身体里炸开了,砰的一声把他对朴正洙的想念拉到了顶峰。
迫切的想要见到朴正洙的脸,想听朴正洙叫他的名字。
所以他去找了队长——申请手机
关于手机是有固定的发放时间,除开固定时间之外的使用时间都是需要靠平时表现来挣的。好在金希澈咬牙坚持得不错,所以这次获得了15分钟。他花了5分钟调整了一下自己的呼吸和情绪,在第6分钟到10分钟里整理了自己想说的话,在第11分钟开始的时候拨打了朴正洙的电话。
“嘟嘟嘟”
“哦,希澈啊”朴正洙接了
一瞬间金希澈的大脑一片空白,刚刚想好的话忘得一干二净
“正…正洙?”
“怎么想起给我打电话了?你等等,现在成员们都在呢你都说几句吧”一阵吵嚷
时间一分一秒地在过去,金希澈边和成员们讲话边焦急,恨不得长出十张嘴同时说,秒针已经在表盘上跑过四圈了,金希澈立刻打断李东海的喋喋不休
“呀,李东海别说了,把电话给你特哥我找他有事”
于是电话重新回到朴正洙手上
“嗯,希澈啊”
“正洙,我看到你的信了,读完了就给你打了电话”
“啊好啊,成员们都好,父母们也都好你别担心,好好服役”
还有30秒
“妈妈很想你呢,常给我打电话说不知道你在部队过得好不好”
“所以家书要认真写啊希澈,别让妈妈担心啊”
“粉丝们也都很想你,写了很多信有些都寄到公司来了,你多读读粉丝的信,在部队好好的别受伤别让粉丝担心”
“我知道,我会的,你们也别担心,我一定好好回去”
还有10秒
“正洙,等我服完役我们就开演唱会吧”
还有5秒
“嗯,好”
电话挂断
仿佛回到那天晚上,朴正洙给他的章如今又被他重新拿起来,交还给朴正洙
一切似乎都没变,但他们都知道有些东西变了
他知道
他也知道
所以还说什么呢?没什么可说的了
走出通讯室的门,金希澈忽然想起刚出道时,那天金希澈难得休息,在宿舍躺了一天。半夜起来上厕所看见客厅灯亮着,以为是有人忘了关,走过去才发现是朴正洙在吃拉面,吃得专注头几乎快埋进锅里。他小声咳了咳,朴正洙抬头看见是他笑了笑,希澈啊,你也饿了吗?
金希澈大步往食堂走去,他觉得他好像听见了那场演唱会上粉丝的呐喊了。
谢谢你看完
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